“She herself would often suggest that the capacity to radiate God’s love was dependent first on a personal interior contact with the fire of God’s love.” –Kathryn Spink, Mother Teresa An Authorized Biography

When He taps, where is my heart?  Is it focused in His desire for me or is it focused on my own desires?  These are questions that I must ask myself.

Last week God tapped my shoulder.  He told me, “Trust Me. Not only do I love you, but abide with you.  Never doubt that I make provision for you & those you love.  Remember you are more.”  This past week God provided, & He challenged me.

Life in this world is not always, if ever, easy.  There are instances that we just do not know what the answer is.  This past week I had no answer.  I asked for help.  God had already provided the answer.

Yes, God had provided comfort to me through His plan.  I could see His fingers & beauty within it all.   However, when I walked away, the overwhelming lesson was not about my reassurance or comfort.  The real lesson was about struggles.  Real pain exists right next to me.   Real trials live in my best friends homes.  Real hardship happens to my neighbors.  Real tragedy happens to us all.

That night I prayed, & I wept.  I had prayed before for the same cause, but now God had revealed the pain of another to the point that I hurt for them.

The gentleman that helped me to see the true dilemma had shared a personal experience that he didn’t have to share.  In sharing & risking, my eyes were opened more fully.  Am I bold enough to risk like this?  Is my heart focused on being the servant to the point that I share pain so another can heal.  One particular instance jumps into my head, “no”.  Yet, I see that I have come a long way from the hiding.

Trust is a hard breath to explain.  I can’t see or touch it.  It is more like a breeze.  I can feel it.  I can observe it’s fruits.  Sounds like God Himself.  Maybe it is.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. ” Proverbs 3:5-6

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart exults, And with my song I shall thank Him.” Psalm 28:7